Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners and purify your hearts. (James 4:8)
I joined the community of CFCI Singles in the Porvorim Chapter around 3-4 years ago but am now part of the Bangalore community due to my work commitments.
Ever since I can remember, my parents, who are a part of the CFCI Couples back home in Goa, have always urged me to honour the commitment which I had taken to this community, which included being faithful to my prayer time, bible reading, rosary and so on.
To be honest, I had the kind of relationship with God wherein I only called on Him when I was in need of something. May be it was for a job placement, or when I was going nowhere with my research and needed some direction on how to proceed, or just in general when I fell in trouble and needed God to bail me out.
Purely due to the Lord’s mercy and blessings, I got a job as a consultant with an environmental firm in Bangalore. As such, I sometimes need to travel to visit our clients who are based all over the country. It was on one such visit that I had a small accident which resulted in a backbone injury. Due to this, I had to immediately fly home to Goa and undergo treatment and physiotherapy. It was during this time that I felt the Lord asking me to slow down and reflect on my life in general, most specially my spiritual life.
One evening, during my convalescence period, as I was watching television, my dad came and sat besides me and began to speak to me about my commitment to God and this community. He then requested me to accompany him for the Goa District Servants Conference (GDSC) to be held the following day. Despite having a late night football match to watch and an early morning flight to catch the next day, I decided to go for it.
The conference was mind blowing. Among many sessions, the one which touched me the most was the teaching on the qualities of Mother Mary that gave her a perfect heart to praise God i.e. Humility, trust and submission. I left for Bangalore the next morning, full of enthusiasm to begin working on changing my life.
One month down the line, it was time for the National Singles Conference in Goa. The teachings were on the same beautiful lines. But it was what happened after the conference that was truly amazing.
The Lord had instilled in me a great hunger for His word. On arriving back home, I sought the help of a fellow brother from the singles community and we decided that on a daily basis we would read, meditate and discuss about the word of God. The Lord slowly inspired me to share my Bible meditations with my fellow brothers and sisters in the community, as well as with my family and friends.
My prayer life began growing. I was now able to praise God more and more using scripture, rather than giving Him a shopping list of things I needed. I slowly began to realise that, as my relationship with God deepened, the sin in my life began to decrease. God called me from my life of lethargy and indifference and transformed me into a man hungry for his word.
Indeed, the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two edged sword, piercing until it divides soul from spirit, joints from marrow; it is able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart. (Hebrews 4:12)