Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved; for you are my praise.(Jeremiah 17:14)
I had been suffering with chronic bronchitis for the past 20 years. I never really enjoyed my childhood because I was perpetually ill and weak. I loved animals but could never hold them close as their fur would affect me. I performed poorly in school as I was kept at home most of the time to recover. I was always told that I was weak and unhealthy and thus I felt unwanted by my family. I was repeatedly told and made to believe that my sickness was hereditary and that I would have to live with this for the rest of my life. Even though I struggled with all this, I never thought of God during these times. I would never pray except when I needed something.
My prayer life was almost non existent until around 2 years ago when I decided to join CFCI-Singles in the Porvorim Chapter, in the hope that this would help me get closer to God.
Just before joining, I was also diagnosed with endometriosis (thickening of the inner lining of the uterus) as well as an ovarian cyst. My already miserable self was completely shattered with this news since there was a high possibility of the cyst being malignant.
I was put on treatment which had terrible side effects which included excessive hair fall. I was so depressed and I wondered why all this was happening to me.
During the course of the Christian Life Seminar (CLS), I realized that all along, God was just waiting for me to take the first step and pray to Him, but I was too selfish and thought I could do everything on my own. My prayer life gradually improved and my relationship with God gradually began to grow. I began spending time reading the bible and went frequently for adoration as well.
Every time I went for a check up to the doctor, the sonography report showed that my cyst had decreased by a millimetre or so. I continued praying in the hope that the Lord would completely heal me.
Somewhere along the way, I attended a retreat where I experienced a great outpouring of the Holy Spirit into my life. I was slain during the praise and worship session and I believe it was there that I was healed of my endometriosis and ovarian cyst. Subsequent sonography reports and consultations with the doctor confirmed that I was indeed completely cured.
Around a year ago, I came across a book called “Hidden springs to healing” by Sister Mary Usha, wherein she stated that some of the root causes of bronchitis were resentment and rejection. It dawned on me then that this could be the reason for my sickness. She went on to say that only after you truly forgive all those people in your life who rejected you and made you feel unwanted, would you be able to experience true healing.
Shortly after, while at a retreat, I was able to forgive all those who hurt me. I felt so relieved, light and happy. Later, when the priest announced the healings, one of them was a healing from bronchitis which I claimed.
It has been more than a year now and I truly believe that I have been healed. I can now cuddle an animal and I haven’t had an attack ever since.
Truly, the steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, His mercies never come to an end. (Lamentations 3:22)