I regard everything as loss because of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.
I was the perfect definition of a “Sunday Catholic“. I did the bare minimum required of me, nothing more, and nothing less. I attended Sunday mass; prayed occasionally and lived according to what I felt was the right way. Jesus was just someone whom I prayed to, that too only when I needed something.
I used to hold a lot of grudges and found it difficult to forgive people. I wasn’t the most responsible person around and I struggled to make even a small commitment. I was also blind to a lot of my sins and failings.
All this changed when I joined the Christian Life Seminar (CLS) in September 2015 in the Porvorim chapter. It was one of the best decisions I ever made. I found that I was able to commit to attending almost all the sessions. It was probably the first time in my life that I had committed to something and kept up to it.
As time passed by, I witnessed numerous changes in my life. I have now become more forgiving, loving, accountable and responsible. I have become more aware of my sins and now the sacrament of confession has a deeper meaning for me. Prior to the CLS, prayer time just meant family rosary or mumbling a few prayers; but now I have a ‘personal prayer time’ where I spend time talking to Jesus whilst praising and thanking Him for all the blessings in my life. I also am able to recite my personal rosary often and this has helped me ward off a lot of temptations.
The best part of this journey, which has only just begun is that, I now look at Jesus as so much more. He is my best friend, my guide, my counsellor, my everything.