It was two years ago when I was feeling weighed down in my personal life and in my service in the community that God spoke to my heart. He simply said ‘turn to my mother, learn from her‘. He also confirmed His message through a sister in the community.
It was mother Mary who had led me to her son. Then somehow she got sidelined in my life. But now Jesus was giving her back to me. He was saying to me from the cross, as He said to the apostle John ‘behold your mother‘, so that she could be my close companion in my walk with Him.
Over these two years, I’ve learned to make her fiat – ‘I am the hand maid of the lord, be it done unto me according to thy word‘ – has become my own prayer. I have learnt from her to be- stabat – present to the lord and live in his presence daily. I now seek following Mary’s example of the Magnificat, to magnify the lord with my life- in my thoughts, in my words and in my deeds, trusting the lord to work his plan in my life.
A couple of months ago God put a particular book into my hands. This book led me to consecrate my life to mama Mary following the lives of four stalwarts of the faith – St. Louis de Mont fort, St. Maximillian Kolbe, St. John Paul the great and St. Therese of Calcutta. I learnt from them to walk the Christian life accompanied by Mary. Each one of them, over a period of 33 days prior to my consecration to mama Mary, taught me to cherish her and imitate her in loving and serving her son Jesus.
After my consecration, one of the practical steps given in the book to deepen my relationship with mama Mary was to make a pilgrimage to a Marian site. Immediately my mind turned to Lourdes and Fatima but this seemed an impossible dream. However, nothing is impossible with god and he opened the doors for me to attend the canonization of mother Theresa. And then from Rome, I visited other pilgrimage sites including Lourdes in France and Fatima in Portugal. Besides, I also made visits to the shrines of St. Padre Pio, St. Anthony of Padua and St. Francis of Assisi, the miraculous medal and the shroud of Turin. Accompanied by the great cloud of heavenly witnesses, it was truly an awesome experience.
Everyone I meet tells me how privileged I was to attend the canonization of mother Theresa and I know that this was truly a blessing from god. The ceremony however was awesome in its simplicity, the aura of holiness that surrounded it and the tangible presence of god. Though it left us physically exhausted, our spirits were so lifted to the heavenly realm so that I could say with
Isaiah 6:5 ‘my eyes have seen the lord, the god almighty’.
It was truly an encounter with the almighty who loves us and does great things in and through us.
The deepest desire of the hearts of both mother Theresa and mother Mary is to satisfy the thirst of the heart of Jesus for love and for souls.
I ask myself, ‘is this also the desire of my heart?‘ daily, as I renew my consecration to the blessed mother Mary, I pray the two prayers that mother Theresa prayed:
“Immaculate Heart of Mary, keep me in your most pure heart, so that I may please Jesus through you, in you and with you” and “lend your heart and help me to love with the perfect love of your immaculate heart”.