Teach me to do your will, for You are my God. Let your good spirit lead me on a level path. (Psalm 143:10)
I have been a part of the community of CFCI- Singles, (Caranzalem Chapter) for little under a year now, and the graces that I have received have been tremendous.
St. Peter writes in his first epistle that we should
be like newborn infants, longing for spiritual milk, so that by it, we may grow into salvation. (1 Peter 2:2)
Just like a newborn, I am still taking baby steps in this community and in my spiritual life, but I am trying to develop a more personal relationship with Jesus and grow into the saint he wants me to become.
I spent a lot of time hesitating to pen down this sharing, thinking that it wouldn’t be good enough. But then it struck me that deep down, we are all afraid of something; of not being good enough or smart enough or kind enough. This however should not stop us from trying to achieve Christian perfection. As Blessed Mother Teresa writes,
“God doesn’t require us to succeed; he only requires that we try.”
What I have learnt in my short time in this community is to put my trust in the Lord, submit to His holy will and try my best.
With the help of my household, I am learning to praise God for who He is and what he does for me, because we seldom realise that
without him we are absolutely nothing. (John 15:5)
Joining this community has helped me strengthen my relationship with God through daily prayer, scripture reading and regular visits to the Blessed Sacrament for adoration.
The desire to frequent the sacrament of confession is another grace that I’ve received from the Lord. I always knew its importance in theory of course, but somehow I wouldn’t go for confession as often as I do now. It was the Lord who convicted me that
in failing to confess, I hide God from myself, not myself from God. (St Augustine).
Making daily mass a part of my schedule is also on the cards. It is my resolution for the New Year and with the grace of God; I will be able to be faithful to that as well.
I’m currently doing my internship at Goa Medical College and the road ahead is very uncertain with the post graduate entrance criteria changing ever so often, but I know that God will guide me on the right path. It might not be what I want, but it will definitely be what I need to do, for His greater glory. As
King Solomon writes, “The human mind plans the way but the Lord directs the steps.” (Proverbs 16:9)
Through my profession as a doctor, I know that the Lord is using me to heal other people. This by itself is a humbling experience that the Lord should deign to use someone as insignificant as me to reach out to His people.
Over and above becoming a good doctor, my main aim in life is to continue strengthening my relationship with Jesus because he loves me like no one else ever has and no one else ever will.