Rejoice not over me, O my enemy; when I fall, I shall rise;
when I sit in darkness, the Lord will be a light to me.
~Micah 7:8 (RSVCE)
Jesus falling under the weight of the cross reminds us how human, Jesus was. It reminds us of the gravity and heaviness of our sins that He took upon Himself. It also reminds us of our falls in our journey towards heaven – the sins that we have been battling in our day to day life, the sins which we resolve, never to commit again and taste victory, some sins that we give in, only to realise that we have fallen deeper than before. We may get up and look at our crucified Christ and begin again but the majority of times we get discouraged, are filled with doubt and distracted by self-pity.
What is my response when I fall under the weight of my sin? Do I recognise my weakness and come to the Father for the grace and strength I need to rise up? Or do I sink in self-pity and start believing the lie that my failure is bigger than the forgiveness Christ has given me, from the cross?
The saints that went before us have also experienced such deep falls yet they are now crowned with eternal life. They have taught us just like Christ showed the way: to begin, again and again, humbling ourselves that apart from Him we can do nothing and we should have our eyes fixed on the Cross.
It is when I fall that I rise. It is when I fall to the ground in my nothingness, it lets me recognise the power of the life-giving Cross. For all the weaknesses and times that we fall, may it lead us to recognise that it is Christ alone who can deliver us.
Like St. Paul in Romans 5:20b
“… where sin increased, grace abounded all the more,”
and The Easter Proclamation (Exsultet) sings, ‘O happy fault,. . . which gained for us so great a Redeemer!’ May our old self, full of sin fall so that the new self rises in the victory. So
“Rejoice not over me, O my enemy; when I fall, I shall rise; when I sit in darkness, the Lord will be a light to me”.
Dear Lord Jesus, I bring before you all my sinful behaviours, especially those which I keep committing. Help me to remember that I am weak and I need Thee. Help me to humble myself and put my trust in your saving grace than in my efforts to overcome these sins. Give me the strength to return to you no matter how many times I have fallen during the day. Help me to begin again now. God, have mercy on me, a sinner. O Queen conceived without original sin, pray for me. Amen.
For the first time, I come across as a calm person but my HH members and the priest to whom I go for confession know my struggle with pride and anger for a few years. I fall many times in the deep pit of anger. When things are not done my way, it brings out the ugly pride that lies hidden most of the times. At the end of the day, many times I have looked back with despair, as if there is no hope for a wretched soul like me and doubted that God’s love for me doesn’t depend on my doings. It is in my household sharings and in the family that I have learnt that I am called to begin again. Regular confession has helped me to nail my pride on the Cross and lead me onto the path of humility. It surely is a thorn in my flesh but knowing how sinful I am, it reminds me I need a Saviour
- I will not give in to discouragement or doubt but persevere to begin again every time I fall.
- I will do the Daily Examination of Conscience and go for regular confession.
- I will say prayerful invocations during the difficult times: ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner’ or ‘O Queen conceived without original sin, pray for me’.
- I will pray the Litany of Trust.